Searching for the conclusion…

Life was amazing,

Everything felt right,

Nothing’s changed,

But there’s just this lost and empty feeling inside,

No words to express what’s going through this mind,

And no actions to show the feelings in this heart,

There’s so much that needs to be done,

So much that needs to be said,

But instead silence and laziness is all that’s been felt.

 
There’s just a haze and such confusion,

Eyes are wandering, searching for a conclusion,

Not for the end, but just for this chapter,

So the pages can be turned,

And the story can continue.

 
It feels like the answer is near,

As much as now would be great,

I don’t want to Jeopardize¬†what it could be,

There will be a moment when the timing will be perfect,

Just got to stay strong and believe everything will fall into place,

And remember everything happens for a reason.

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Voices…

Voices,

Two little voices,

One that brings out the biggest smile,

The other the fastest frown and quickest change in mood,

One that’s loved and¬†welcomed with open arms,

The other,

Well, although it’s not the one that’s wanted,

Still seems to be the one with the most influential power,

With its booming echo that causes a tremble that shakes to the very core,

Its the one you are bound to listen to.

The one that makes you believe you’re not worth it,

You aren’t good enough,

“Look at her, she’s so much prettier than you”

“Look at him, he can get all the girls”

“Look at them, they’re all judging you”

It’s the voice that just won’t go away,

Although it Maybe seems hard,

Sometimes silencing it is the best way,

Success and happiness will then find their way.

 

These little voice live inside our brain,

The choice is yours,

Which will you choose to listen to?

Dear society…

Dear Society,

I have had a lot of sleepless nights. But tonight is different and You might not care but I need to tell you why.

My heart aches and my brain is in overdrive. You might think that I’m here to complain about my personal problems. But you’re wrong, you’ve already prejudged me just like you always do.

I honestly never knew I could hurt so much for someone because of something that seems so simple.

And the only thing that’s running through my mind is, What has happened to you society? What has happened?

I’m so distracted with my thoughts and just found myself typing away with such anger and hurt. Not for myself, but for all those that are suffering from the corruption you have caused.

You haven’t only corrupted a small group of people. No not at all. You’ve Stubbornly corrupted even the small minds, the ones that are supposed to be innocent and loving. Well thank you, those are the rare ones now.

Children. CHILDREN!!!

You’ve taught them to judge and discriminate. You’ve already imprinted in their minds that beauty is thin. You’ve already taught them that someone who’s unique doesn’t fit in.

I don’t think you understand the pain, a 7 year old being so hurt for being told “You don’t fit in, you never will.” from those he considered to be his friends. All he wanted to do was cry but… He didn’t. You know why? You have taught him it’s not okay for boys to cry. He has been repeatedly told that being a man means not crying and being strong. You know what that has done??? He pretends not to feel any pain, he gets violent when he is angry, and he acts older than his age. How is that fair??

I’m sorry I’m on a rant, but this is definitely not a life a child should be living. It’s gotten to the point that you cannot comfort him because he thinks that’s him being weak.

I had so much expectations for you society. I thought you’d at least spare the young ones from your harsh ways of living. But nope I was wrong.

Those of you who have been able to fight the corruption and stay pure and kind. I sincerely Praise you. You deserve so much respect. Although I ask you for a favour and I hope you’ll try. Teach our children and teach those around you. Don’t discriminate, don’t judge and especially don’t hate.

Remind them: It’s okay to be different, it’s okay not to be thin, it’s okay to feel anger but never to be violent, it’s okay to feel hurt and most importantly it’s okay to cry.

I’m sorry society, but I can’t help but see you in a bad light right now. Thank you for already ruining our children’s life.

I’m still here if you ever need…

You asked me to drink coffee,

And I selfishly replied no,

I’m sorry I seemed like such a fraud.

I let my past reply, instead of the me today,

I’ll listen and hear everything you got to say,

I just need to know you’re nothing like the ones before,

I’m here to help don’t get me wrong,

You caught me off guard and now I see,

I’m not as good as I thought I’d be,

I’m rambling a lot I know,

But I now feel bad,

If only you know.

 

You don’t need to drink your coffee alone,

Don’t forget

I’m still here if you ever need..

 

 

Apology