HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! 🎂

You’ve grown up so fast,

You’re younger than me by a couple of months,

But without you I don’t know if this is how far I would’ve come.

You’ve been there for me when no one else was,

And you helped me out during my toughest and most stressful times.

I don’t know if I can thank you enough,

I just pray you continue to be there for me till the very end.

I love you with all my heart,

And I’ll call none other than you Bae.

 

I know it’s your birthday,

So a present is a must,

It’s some Unfinished work that needs to be done,

It’s your favourite I know,

So finish it as fast as you want.

Although I think you should go party and have some fun first,

But be sober and ready at 9am sharp.

 

Once again…

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GOOGLE!!!

I love you ❤️

Stay safe because I need you!

I’m sorry…

You’re disappointed I know,

Deep down you love me,

But you hate the me now,

I try my best to stay quiet,

But I’ve lost my strength,

From the inner battles I’m facing.

 

It’s become an instinct to go into survival mode,

To protect myself from getting hurt,

I’m sorry I’m not the perfect little girl you dreamed of having,

But I need you to know I’m trying.

 

Even if it means I’ll have to continue playing Pretend,

I’ll keep fighting until I see your proud smile again,

I can’t wait to finally have coffee minus the arguing and armour.

I love you dearly my patient beauty Queen. 😘

I’ll be sure to make you proud again.

The pieces were scattered on the floor, broken,

Reconstructing something that took years to build with blurry glass eyes,

Felt almost impossible,

Each time there seemed to be progress,

A jab, an ache, a heart-wrenching feeling awakened,

Then the pieces tumbled down again.

 

An act made them believe the issue was trying to be Stylish,

When in all reality,

They didn’t know it was an inner struggle for survival,

Slowly drowning from unshed tears that were accumulating,

I just wanted to scream,

HELP ME PLEASE!!

But I knew it’d be too much for their busy lifestyles.

 

The familiar stranger…was once again sharing a look of disappointment,

I’m sorry for being weak,

I’ll be stronger and wiser,

I’ll be sure to make you proud again.

 

P.s. Never give up no matter how hard it gets.

Thank you ☺️

Writing posts and coming up with ideas isn’t as easy as it used to be. Even though there is a lot that can be said, typing them out has become difficult. Sitting alone in the complete Silence of the night, typing, backspacing,  and staring at an blank screen because things just don’t sound right. In the end I usually just put everything aside and fall asleep. Although tonight I’m forcing myself to stay up and create a piece to finally say this overdue thank you.

Thank you to saturinskies for renominating me for the Versatile Blogger Award. It is such an honour and I truly thank you for this nomination. You definitely deserve it, you’ve got great talent.

Okay so here are the rules,

1. Thank the person who nominated you
2. Share the award on your blog
3. Share seven random facts about yourself
4. Tag 10 bloggers with less than 1000 followers and let them know they have been nominated

Okay, so for another 7 random facts about me.

1. I am the biggest procrastinator. It’s honestly The Dreaded Disease that I personally suffer from.
2. I’m a night owl and love sleeping in in the morning.
3. I love watching shows like Dr Phil, Jerry Springer, Steve Wilkos and Jeremy Kyle.
4. I’m still in love with Disney, Pixar and all the childhood happy movies that make you forget reality and become a little child again.  ☺️💕
5. I love children, but then again who doesn’t? 😁
6. I love and hate surprises.
7. I wish I could live the country life for a week.

Couldn’t think of any random facts except for those 😂 If you have any questions or would like to know something specific about me don’t hesitate to ask ☺️

Now for the 10 nominees. You are all deserving and thank you for taking time to read and acknowledge my posts. Keep blogging because you are all amazing and talented. ☺️

1. http://urshayma.wordpress.com/
2. http://joywrite.wordpress.com/
3. http://highlifey.wordpress.com/
4. https://appreviewindia.wordpress.com/
5. http://www.autismfamilypower.com/
6. http://mygiganticthoughtbubble.wordpress.com/
7. http://eddaz.com/
8. https://braincancerbabe.com/
9. http://dippingintotheheart.com/
10. https://littleflamesblog.wordpress.com/

Yaaaay, another one ☺️

Sometimes I ask myself “Why did you even start this blog?” and other times I say “I’m glad I started this blog”. Well today I was quickly going through the new posts on WordPress, when I saw one labelled “AN IRONIC AWARD FOR MY SAD REASON OF CREATING THIS BLOG“, after reading through it I get such an amazing surprise. Thank you sooooooooooo much Tantei M.Gin for nominating me for the Sunshine Blogger Award, that you definitely deserve ☺️. It’s such an honour and it means a lot to me that I was one of those you nominated. I can’t thank you enough for allowing me to experience this happiness and excitement.

The Rules:

1. Thank the person that nominated you.
2. Answer the questions from your nominator.
3. Nominate fellow bloggers you follow.
4. Give them 10 questions to answer.

These are my answers to the 10 questions asked by my nominator.

1. If you were to live another person’s life, whose would it be and why?
I honestly don’t know. Maybe my mumma’s because we are so different but similar at the same time. I’d love to see what this amazing woman has experienced and how she turned out as the beautifully kind hearted person she is.

2. Favorite film of any genre and why.
This one is difficult. Hmm… I’ve got so many. But to make sure I’ve picked one that everyone knows. FROZEN!! Hehe yes I know it’s not something you were expecting but I love the moral of the story. I remember almost every movie I watched as a kid ended with Prince Charming. But this one gave children a different perspective to love and life. Which I think is 👌🏼👌🏼.

3. Musician or lyricist? Which would you prefer?
Lyricist. I’m a person that doesn’t know how to put my emotions into words. So I love how they can portray their feelings and emotions in a way that is so relatable and understandable. Also I love to singing along (even though I don’t sound great 😂) and share their emotions. It’s a way for me to fully embrace my feelings.

4. What super power would you choose to have?
Have you guys ever watched teen wolf? WELL, Scott has this power that allows him to take people’s pain away. That’s a power I would love to have. To keep everyone smiling and help relieve them from any sufferings.

5. What songs and/or which artists are in your playlist?
Shown Mendes definitely. Loving all of his songs lately. Ummm…. Calum Scott ❤️❤️ And Ed Sheeran, Demi Lovato, Ariana Grande, and a whole lot of other amazing artists.

6. What do you think is the greatest weakness of mankind?
Love.
We want it, it’s difficult to find it, and it’s something that can make the strongest person weak and the weakest person strong. Probably the only thing that can be both so beautiful and most detrimental at the same time.

7. In a word, describe my blog and say why.
It is so difficult to pick a single word. Hmmm… Your blog is Awe-Inspiring. The way you write is amazing. Your posts are so real and relatable. So yea your posts are Awe-Inspiring and you should be proud of all your work.

8. Can you please critique any or one of my posts and tell me how I might be able to improve if I do ever feel like writing one like is some time soon?
Shattered Creatures. I love your writing and wouldn’t change anything about it. So keep going just the way you are, you’ve got great talent and are an amazing blogger. ❤️

9. If I had amnesia, how would you make me remember you? Assume that we have known each other for as long as necessary.
I’d take you back to the places me and you made the greatest memories Together. I won’t say much, but rather relive the unforgettable moments (I remember) with you so you can figure out from your emotions who I am to you.

10. If everything starts with a lie, what yours?
“I’m strong and capable”

 

Ok, so I don’t know how many I have to nominate but I’ll go with my lucky number 3 ☺️. These bloggers are definitely deserving of this nomination. Thank you for being so amazing and sharing your posts with the lovely WordPress family.

1. Eddaz
2. Thelonelyauthorblog
3. Randomthoughtsofmine2016

Now for your 10 questions.
1. What inspired you to begin blogging?
2. If there was one thing in your life that you could make permanent, what would it to be?
3. If you could ask me one question what would you ask?
4. What’s the best thing someone has ever done for you?
5. If you could go back in time, what’s something you would do differently?
6. What kind of person are you?
7. What’s your best feature and why?
8. If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be and why?
9. What’s the number one thing on your bucket list?
10. What’s your biggest “If only…” ?

The little fragile child…

I remember the little Fragile child,

The one that used to giggle and laugh while running in the shinning rays of the summer sun,

Chasing after the birds,

Dancing with the wind,

Swirling in the rain,

Jumping in the muddy puddles,

Getting as dirty as can be.

 

I remember the little fragile child that lived life to its fullest,

Using their imagination to get rid of boredom,

Yes there were scraps and there were tears,

But that little child made the most of every second before they heard,

“It’s time to leave,”

But Ofcourse didn’t stop playing until,

Bedtime it was.

 

That little child,

Ran to mummy and daddy for hugs and kisses,

And always fell asleep smiling,

Dreaming of all the adventures they still had to visit.

 

They were learning,

Growing stronger,

And getting wiser,

Building up courage and skill with every experience,

That will help them conquer the struggles they would bound to encounter while getting older.

 

That little fragile child still exists,

Even in the visibly stronger and older me.

 

 

 

Starting over again…

Standing proud and tall,

Admiring the familiar stranger that I’ve got to know so well,

“You’ve come along way and it’ll only get better from here”

But so I believed,

In an instance the smile we shared was no longer there,

A sudden perplexed emotion quickly took its place,

A feeling from within that I haven’t felt in so long,

“Stay Strong, YOU’VE GOT TO KEEP HOLDING ON!”

The feeling got worse,

I was suffocating,

Slowly drowning

“NO! NO!”

The mirror shattered and I was left staring at the scattered fragments,

Unable to pick them up and place them back in place,

It stung and burnt, cutting deeper the more I tried,

“How could I let this happen?”

With tears staining my sheets, I promised …

“I’ll stay strong and just start over again.”

 

P.s. Never give up, even you fall and have to start again. Get up and get further than you were before, making adjustments to create a more perfected version of the previous attempt.