*Message sent…*

A soft short ring,
A little light slowly blinking,
The screen flicks on,
The message in view.

You have always put everything aside,
Always helped,
Never asked for anything in return.

You gave up all your time to be there,
Never once did you reply with “I can’t”,
Or “I’m busy”,
Even though those were their replies whenever you’d ask.

But that’s enough…
You’ve spent enough time solving other people’s problems,
You’ve helped unravel their strings while watching yours get even more tangled.

It times you took a step back,
Paid attention to yourself,
And took some time off from being a human diary.

However you’re way too kind,
And just can’t help it.

As much as you try to take care of yourself,
As hard as you try to put yourself first.
Somehow it just doesn’t end up happening.

“Yes I’m free, how can I help?”
Sent.

A different kind of voyage.

I’m setting out on a Voyage.

Not one of those adventurous ones where you see and do amazing things.

No. I’m going on one within myself. I can’t go and admire nature when I simply can’t admire the reflection on this river.

It hurts to think about how much has changed in such a short time. Everything was different, and I’ve been too caught up to make sense of it all. That’s why I need this. I need this to remember what it’s truly like to be living.

I need to be living each day as it goes, fully invested in each little thing that happens. But lately I’ve been stuck within my head. Living within my thoughts, missing out on all the simple things that used to matter to me.

They don’t deserve my withdrawal when it’s means nothing to them. Simply forgotten, not even a glance to check if I’m okay. But that’s okay. I’m going on this voyage and I’m going to come out of it stronger than ever. I’m going to become a better version of me. I’m not going to sit there waiting for them to look, I’m going to let them miss out on my amazing jump.

They’re too busy, so they don’t deserve me.