These words echo…

Demeaning words,

“You aren’t good enough!”

 

Criticising laughs,

“You’re a fool for thinking you could be tough!”

 

Piercing smirks,

“You’re going to slip and fall and never be able to get back up!”

 

So much noise,

You wish it would just all stop.

 

If only you had a remote with buttons to lower the volume,

Or better still mute everything up.

 

You could walk away to be in a more silent place,

Far from all these things being said.

 

However, these words echo,

Even in an empty room.

 

Have you forgotten?

 

You welcomed them in,

And here they will remain,

Embedded in your head,

Until you yourself find the courage,

And discard of them for good.

 

Only then will you see change,

And surely you’ll find your true happiness again.

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Cup of Coffee #2…

Hello there again. It’s been a week since the last coffee talk so I thought I’d come and share some more.

If we were having a cup of coffee right now, I’d tell you how have you been? A week is a long time, I’d love to hear how it’s been. A lot of change must have happened during the time that has passed, so please share with me the experiences and challenges that you may have faced.

If we were having a cup of coffee right now, I’d tell you it’s fine if things are exactly the same. It’s also okay if you have nothing to share. I’m just glad we got to meet up again.

If we were having a cup of coffee right now, I’d remind you that something great did happen for you, since you are here today. You’ve survived the week and are staying strong. I’m so proud of you for soldiering on.

If we were having a cup of coffee right now, I’d remind you that it’s fine if things weren’t as great as you wished they’d be. Sometimes life can get hard but hey stay strong and remember you’re not alone.

If we were having a cup of coffee right now, I’d take a sip from my cup and then tell you to look outside. To admire and pay attention to the sky slowly clearing as the raindrops slip and slide down the Glass. I’d tell you remember this moment because this one day will happen with your life.

The remote’s in your hand…

I remember the day I no longer had my sense of security always by my side.

For all of you that have an older sibling, you know what I’m talking about. When ever you needed help or just needed some comfort you’d do anything to be in their presence. Ofcourse then there comes times that they aren’t always around.

It was the beginning of a new year and it was the first time I went to school on my own. For someone that had been in situations of bullying and discomfort this was one of the most nerve-racking things to do. The fact that I was shy and a little too sensitive only made matters worse.

Walking into school was scary but I knew this was the day I had to gain a sense of Autonomy when it came to my safety and comfort. I couldn’t rely on anyone, especially not at school. I remember I did just that, I became a whole different me.

I was no longer afraid and I stood up for myself making sure that no one could bring me down. I always wore a smile and if anyone said anything I’d laugh and make sure they didn’t see how it affected me.

 

To anyone that is a victim of bullying or has a hard time anywhere, remember only you have control over your happiness. Don’t let anyone bring you down, stay confident, walk tall and always smile. Trust me it’s intimidating. Ofcourse it’s hard and you’ll fall once or twice but always remember to get back up and be stronger.

It took me a while but definitely made my life so much happier and easier when I had control over my feelings. I know it’ll be the same for you.

Dont forget, you have the remote and you can control your life however you want.

Smile and stay strong. Xx

Stranded…

I’m stranded on an Island. All alone and afraid.

I was caught up worrying, I couldn’t see clearly. I was engulfed with my problems I missed the bigger picture.

I’m still stranded but there’s a change. There’s mesmerising green trees, crystal blue water, white sand and soft waves creating a sense of calmness. The more I enjoy the scenery the more I discover. I’ve started to find things to build a boat and I can now see another land out there at sea.

This change has made me better and I’ll continue it until I can finally say “I’m home”.

 

This one is short and not how I usual write but the Everyday Inspiration email limited me to 100 words. I’ll expand and make it better in the future 🙂 hope you guys still like it. 

Jump The Fence

Once again I’m sitting here at night within the warm enclosure of my bedroom. The soft illumination from the small bedside lamp creating a relaxed and sincere mood in which I can think and write down my thoughts.

Tonight I feel great, calmer in a way. I definitely feel like I’m moving in the right direction. Just the state of mind I’m in and my inner calmness proves that to me in so many ways.

Ofcourse there is still a long way to go but at least I feel a change happening. Very slight and minor but I know it’ll turn into something major. Don’t get me wrong I’m not going to change who I am, just wanting to evolve into the best version of me.

I’m no longer going to play it safe and stay in my cushioned zone. I’m going to be brave and jump the Fence in order to do great things. I have my mind set and hopefully things work out.

To anyone who is like me and fears leaving their comfort zone…

Think of everything you ever wanted to achieve and then reflect…

Can you achieve all those things when you are too afraid to try something a little different, or a little harder or maybe even something completely new? Why not give it a go? At least then we  won’t be stuck in the what ifs and know for sure what works and doesn’t, what’s right and what’s wrong, and, we can have a definite answer rather than an “I think”.

Don’t restrict yourself from doing all the amazing things you want and are capable of achieving. I know I’m not going to. Ofcourse like any process it’s not going to be a smooth ride, they’ll be ups and downs but we just got to take it one step at a time.

If I can leave you and myself with one thing it’s… Don’t be afraid to show the greatness you’re hiding.

A different kind of voyage.

I’m setting out on a Voyage.

Not one of those adventurous ones where you see and do amazing things.

No. I’m going on one within myself. I can’t go and admire nature when I simply can’t admire the reflection on this river.

It hurts to think about how much has changed in such a short time. Everything was different, and I’ve been too caught up to make sense of it all. That’s why I need this. I need this to remember what it’s truly like to be living.

I need to be living each day as it goes, fully invested in each little thing that happens. But lately I’ve been stuck within my head. Living within my thoughts, missing out on all the simple things that used to matter to me.

They don’t deserve my withdrawal when it’s means nothing to them. Simply forgotten, not even a glance to check if I’m okay. But that’s okay. I’m going on this voyage and I’m going to come out of it stronger than ever. I’m going to become a better version of me. I’m not going to sit there waiting for them to look, I’m going to let them miss out on my amazing jump.

They’re too busy, so they don’t deserve me.