I can’t stand it. I’m surrounded by nothingness. It’s like the world has lost all its colour and all that remains is pure darkness. Not a single sound, except the silent ringing in my ears that’s deafening me.
I want to scream, but whenever I try, again there’s nothing. I’ve always been scared of the dark and now I can’t find any escape from it. I’m stuck and afraid, fearing and anticipating the uncertainty that lurkes somewhere within my dark surroundings. I outstretch my hands and pray for a switch, a light, but all I get is emptiness.
There’s supposed to be a full moon tonight, but even that has somehow disappeared in the midst of all this blackness. I can’t take this any longer, it feels like the darkness is creeping in closer, slowly engulfing and taking over.
“Please make this stop!!” Even though there was no physical sounds to be heared, the silent echo chorused throughout my body, awakening parts of me I forgot existed. “I don’t have to be afraid…” eyes squeezed shut, slowly relaxing, it no longer felt like these were my own thoughts. Rather it felt like someone was talking and guiding me.. “You can find your way through the darkness, the light is right in front of your eyes, you just have to be willing to let yourself see it.”
“Open your eyes and look at what surrounds you, look at what you’ve let yourself miss out on.”
Again another silence.
“Don’t be afraid, just believe that there is light, imagine what you want your life to look like.”
Eyes shut I started to imagine lights, the full moon, the world like I had once saw it. “Open your eyes and maybe your thoughts may just become a reality.”
Reluctantly but slowly I opened my eyes there was darkness yet again, but this time accompanied with a faint blur of colour. I rub my eyes and try to mentally remove the darkness. I take another peak and there it was again.
The darkness of the night … Except it was being overpowered by the slight flashing brightness of lights and life. There from my bedroom window I finally saw a city, MY brightly lit city.
Looking up at the gleamingly beautiful full moon, I wondered how I ever let myself lose touch with all of this. I whispered to “Never let darkness blind me from my surrounding beauty or let it silently take control of my life. Darkness is no longer my fear but a strong indication for something breath-takingly beautiful to come.”