*Message sent…*

A soft short ring,
A little light slowly blinking,
The screen flicks on,
The message in view.

You have always put everything aside,
Always helped,
Never asked for anything in return.

You gave up all your time to be there,
Never once did you reply with “I can’t”,
Or “I’m busy”,
Even though those were their replies whenever you’d ask.

But that’s enough…
You’ve spent enough time solving other people’s problems,
You’ve helped unravel their strings while watching yours get even more tangled.

It times you took a step back,
Paid attention to yourself,
And took some time off from being a human diary.

However you’re way too kind,
And just can’t help it.

As much as you try to take care of yourself,
As hard as you try to put yourself first.
Somehow it just doesn’t end up happening.

“Yes I’m free, how can I help?”
Sent.

An attempt to fool them…

Eyes start to sting,

Chest slightly hurting,

A lump welling up,

A headache slowly forming.

 

Putting the coffee down,

Breathing in deeply,

And exhaling calmly,

You wipe away the stray tears,

Fake a smile,

And look up into those familiar pair of eyes…

 

However you fail the attempt at trying to fool them,

As a split second later,

You realise,

They were embedded with nothing but disappointment!

Struggling because of fear…

Struggling,

Struggling to write,

Struggling to be creative,

Struggling to gain some inspiration,

Very little motivation,

Not a single topic,

Not a single thought,

All because I’ve locked myself out,

Giving myself a symptom of fear,

Fear of entering my maze of thoughts again.

Ocean or calm waters?

Are you someone who likes to ruminate?

Or do you find it difficult to keep your thoughts under control?

 

Do you address the single thought?

Or do you always find yourself dragged into a complex Swarm of them?

 

Can you ruminate without getting your feelings involved?

Or are you the one who gets emotionally drained?

 

Can you easily return to reality?

Or are you stuck in your head for hours with no simple escape?

 

Thinking isn’t always as simple as it sounds and it differs for each individual. Some find it easy and fun. Others take on every possible distraction to escape the dreaded ocean of thoughts.

As difficult as it may be for overthinkers, there’s only so much that can be done to avoid it. So when you feel like you’re slowly getting dragged in, just stay calm. Don’t see waves coming crashing down but rather soft relaxing ripples gently caressing the sand.

Take your time getting closer and comfortable to soon dive in. Once you dive, remember to resurface for a breath of reality.

Slowly you’ll start to enjoy the dive and learn to gracefully ride the waves whenever they decide to arise.

What if…

Hello there, how have you been? I’m really glad you managed to dropped by, even for just a bit.

You see you learn a lot about yourself and others by just observing and listening, so while you’re sitting there enjoying your coffee I’d like to share something nice and quick. It might or might not relate to you, I’m not quite sure. So please feel free to share your thoughts, I’d love to hear what you think.


 

Sometimes you get caught up in this feeling of uncertainty,

Every attempt to make it subside is failed,

No matter the strength,

No matter the determination,

It always lurks in the shadows,

Appearing when things are running smoothly,

You see we all have struggles,

We all have fears,

But to succeed we need to face up to them,

Give it our all and push on till the very end,

If we fail, it’s okay we’ll start again and at least then we’ll be able to say

“I tried my very best.”

 

Whenever possible push those uncertainties aside and

Make sure you don’t live an arid life filled with what ifs.

Will you or will you not?

You’re stuck,

You’re hurt,

So confused and lost,

Trying to hit the road to recovery,

But know it’ll be tough.

 

You’re too afraid of your wounds getting worse,

Or worse yet others being formed,

You’re not sure what to do,

Or what is out there waiting for you,

And whether you’re ready to continue your journey or not.

 

It’ll be hard,

You know that for sure,

But you want to be able to say “I gave it a go”

Only time will tell how things will turn out,

So now it’s time,

Time to leave your hideout.