An attempt to fool them…

Eyes start to sting,

Chest slightly hurting,

A lump welling up,

A headache slowly forming.

 

Putting the coffee down,

Breathing in deeply,

And exhaling calmly,

You wipe away the stray tears,

Fake a smile,

And look up into those familiar pair of eyes…

 

However you fail the attempt at trying to fool them,

As a split second later,

You realise,

They were embedded with nothing but disappointment!

Bad day?

I heard you’ve had a rough night, and it all just became too much. I’m so sorry you were alone, feeling so down. If I had the chance I would’ve come right over. With a cup of coffee in each of our hands, I would’ve sat and listened till the final thought spilled out of your mind.

I don’t know what it is you’re going through and I don’t know how much of a struggle everything has been. I just want you to know I’m here if you ever need. Don’t ever hesitate to drop by and say “I just need you to listen to everything I’ve got to say.”

I’m all ears and will try my best to be available in every single way. If not, I apologise life is probably getting in the way but you can trust that I’ll get back to you as soon as I can, I won’t delay.

For now my words of opinion and advice are scattered around in this blog, feel free to have a read until I come back.

The final thing I want to leave you with for now is, figure out the pattern that leaves you feeling down, break it and make it one that elicits positive feelings of happiness and joy.

Stay strong, it’s okay to have a bad day. Just remember to get back up and find your happy path again. 💕

What if…

Hello there, how have you been? I’m really glad you managed to dropped by, even for just a bit.

You see you learn a lot about yourself and others by just observing and listening, so while you’re sitting there enjoying your coffee I’d like to share something nice and quick. It might or might not relate to you, I’m not quite sure. So please feel free to share your thoughts, I’d love to hear what you think.


 

Sometimes you get caught up in this feeling of uncertainty,

Every attempt to make it subside is failed,

No matter the strength,

No matter the determination,

It always lurks in the shadows,

Appearing when things are running smoothly,

You see we all have struggles,

We all have fears,

But to succeed we need to face up to them,

Give it our all and push on till the very end,

If we fail, it’s okay we’ll start again and at least then we’ll be able to say

“I tried my very best.”

 

Whenever possible push those uncertainties aside and

Make sure you don’t live an arid life filled with what ifs.

Cup of coffee #1 (2017)

Oh my, oh my! It’s been so long since our last cup of coffee together but I’ve invited you over because I’ve missed our little chats and I think it’s time that we caught up. So…

If we were having a cup of coffee right now, I’d hug you so tight and tell you I’ve missed you and I’m sorry for disappearing for quite a while. Even though you probably haven’t realised but that’s okay because there’s so many amazing people who are constant and don’t disappear for so long.

If we were having a cup of coffee right now, I’d ask you how everything has been. Wow! The last time we spoke was in 2016! I sure hope 2017 has been looking good for you so far. If not, don’t worry just try to adapt and take each day as a new chance to make it better.

If we were having a cup of coffee right now, I’d sit back and listen because I’ve missed listening to all the details of your emotions and experiences. I’ll share your laughter and your tears because hey I know we haven’t met in so long but I’m always here for a friend in need.

I’m sorry…

You’re disappointed I know,

Deep down you love me,

But you hate the me now,

I try my best to stay quiet,

But I’ve lost my strength,

From the inner battles I’m facing.

 

It’s become an instinct to go into survival mode,

To protect myself from getting hurt,

I’m sorry I’m not the perfect little girl you dreamed of having,

But I need you to know I’m trying.

 

Even if it means I’ll have to continue playing Pretend,

I’ll keep fighting until I see your proud smile again,

I can’t wait to finally have coffee minus the arguing and armour.

I love you dearly my patient beauty Queen. 😘

Cup of coffee #4…

If we were having a cup of coffee right now, I’d apologise for not checking up on you for so long. It’s been so difficult to balance it all out. That’s no excuse Ofcourse, I know, I just need to learn how to manage it all.

If we were having a cup of coffee right now, I’d ask you about how things have been playing out. Has life been good or in one of its downs? Don’t worry if it hasn’t been that great and there’s been a cloud overhead, remember the sun is bound to shine some day.

If we were having a cup of coffee right now, I’d make sure I gave you enough time to give me a run down of what’s constantly been on your mind. I won’t be staying long and please don’t get me wrong I want to sit here and listen to you rant about everything single thing that’s been going on.

If we were having a cup of coffee right now, I’d tell you I’m sorry our encounter has been so short, but I’ve got an appointment with The familiar stranger to figure out if this is where the Sidewalk ends or if the journey should go on.

I’m still here if you ever need…

You asked me to drink coffee,

And I selfishly replied no,

I’m sorry I seemed like such a fraud.

I let my past reply, instead of the me today,

I’ll listen and hear everything you got to say,

I just need to know you’re nothing like the ones before,

I’m here to help don’t get me wrong,

You caught me off guard and now I see,

I’m not as good as I thought I’d be,

I’m rambling a lot I know,

But I now feel bad,

If only you know.

 

You don’t need to drink your coffee alone,

Don’t forget

I’m still here if you ever need..

 

 

Apology